Learning

I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and that there is something to be learned by every experience we have in our lives. I sometimes just wish I could get the experience part over with and learn what I need to learn all ready. This whole thing with Desert Tire is KILLING me. Brenden still works there, they got rid of everyone else in my family that worked there, and it's just hard. Brenden comes home and tells me stuff, and I hear a completely different side of the story from my family (mostly my dad). This is just HARD, and I HATE it :o( On top of all this crap that's going on.....Well, remember I said that someone told my dad something I told them in the heat of the moment? I found out it was my oldest sister, whom also took it upon herself to tell Bryan also. The only thing that accomplished is that now he's pissed off at me and hates me. It's not like she had anything good to say about him either, but that doesn't give me the right to go tell him exactly what she said. The hard thing about saying something to someone, is that you can't really take it back. Once you've said it, you've said it. I keep running it through my mind why she would have said anything to anyone, the only thing I can think of is that she WANTED to cause problems. Because there is no other reason. I guess my lesson that I need to learn is to just keep things to myself, and stop venting so much to people, just hold it all in and explode in private. Whatever man, I'm screwed either way right?