Monday, February 23, 2015

I need to CALM DOWN!  I need to stop being so NEGITIVE!  I need more LOVE in my HEART!  I need to be GREATFUL!  I hate when I wake up in the morning, especially on Sunday, and I’m already in a pissy mood.  Whether it’s because the kids start fighting first thing in the morning or what.  I need to keep my cool.  Something happened yesterday morning to get my day off to a terrible start.  I think Ryan and Jack were arguing or something.  Then Brenden woke up because he had to go out for the city and clear snow off the roads.  He mentioned to Ryan that he needed to go shovel snow for the two people in our ward that he’s in charge of.  He of course didn’t want to and argued and complained about it until he finally got up and got ready.  He said he was sick, that may be true, but it’s always convenient for him to be sick when we want him to do something.  He couldn’t get ahold of his snow shoveling partner, so I went and helped.  When we got home he ‘really wasn’t feeling good’, so he couldn’t help me shovel our driveway, but of course he had to go get his dirt bike that he left outside, and he had to figure out why it was leaking gas.  Made me MAD!  I hurried and got in the shower and realized that I had an hour less than I thought to get ready.  Jen Hess, our primary president, called about 10:15 (church starts at 11) and told me that I was going to have to man the primary room because several teachers weren’t going to be there.  Everything turned out just fine in primary, but I just wish all the above things I would have done, because it WAS NOT A GOOD MORNING!  Ryan did end up going to church, even though he was ‘sick’ because he knew Brenden and I would give him crap for not going (this seems to happen a lot on Sundays, that he’s ‘sick’).  Brenden was clearing snow all during church and didn’t show up.  The rest of the Sunday went pretty good, I still have things that I really need to work on though.  I find it really hard for me to even THINK when I’m in the moment!  I just react, and that’s never good.  I will try.  I was mad enough to swear once, so now I have to start over, here’s to NO SWEARING!