LOVE

I don’t know if I say this a lot, or if I just think it a lot. Anyways, if I do say it a lot, I’m sorry :o) I don’t know exactly what it is about Cole, but I LOVE him so much! Don’t get me wrong, I love Ryan and Jack too, and I loved them when they were little tinny babies. But I feel so different about Cole, I don’t know if it’s because I just don’t want him to grow up, I want him to stay little forever. Or if it’s the fact that I’ve wanted him for so long, and now I finally have him. I was trying to get pregnant for like two or three years, then when I stopped trying, that’s when he showed up! I mean really, there is a 4 ½ year difference between Jack and Cole, and only 2 years between Ryan and Jack. It’s so different. I just want to hold Cole all the time, and he’s been such a good baby! Well, until this last Wednesday, he had his 2 month check up, and got some shots. He’s been kinda cranky since then :o( I guess I’m just saying, I’m so very glad I have him (and Ryan and Jack)_they are all such blessings in my life, even though I get a little crazy sometimes ;o) I’m learning to be more patient everyday, I’m defiantly not perfect, but I’m getting a little better. Other people may not be able to tell a difference, but I can feel it on the inside, I don’t’ feel as CRAZY as I used to. :o)